An increase of one thousand feet is equivalent to moving
a hundred miles northward and therefore
many steps back into spring
many steps back into spring
It's like when you wake up before your alarm is supposed to go off. That's how my day started, at dawn.
Sleeping outside can make you more aware. Light, sound, wind. Life, and the way time passes outside of 'our world.' That world is what? Human dominance, isolation, artificial light, control. This world, outside, once informed every part of our existence but can now be so readily ignored. Suddenly, sitting around a campfire, you are filled with questions: What's the difference between twilight and dusk? Does the moon spin, and in which direction?
I was first up at camp, just the way I like it.
I haven't been to Lake Casitas since elementary school. My friend's dad, who would take us fishing here during summer break, told me once that I had "great boat manners." I think I was just a shy kid. He drove an old manual truck— I don't remember the model but it was probably American-made— with a grenade on the shifter knob.
"Ha-wheeer!" An ash-throated flycatcher, Myiarchus cinerascens, right next to me, above me actually, in the tree I pissed next to last night. I don't recall the lake being this beautiful. Maybe I've never seen it in this light. It's just after 6 AM and there are some pretty clouds floating low, caught in the fingers of the man-made reservoir. Maybe it's the water level; what a winter we had. "Casitas is absolutely gorgeous when it's full," or at least that's what my fisherman friend says at dinner a couple nights after this moment. There's a raptor sitting in a tree down there. Oh... another red-tailed hawk.
The Santa Barbara Channel is only a few hundred feet deep for the twenty-five or so miles between the mainland and the northern group of islands. But on the seaward side, the continental shelf immediately drops off, to a depth of about six thousand feet. The fishing is good here too, I'm told.
The captain spots a large group of bottlenose dolphins up ahead. "The life of a dolphin seems pretty simple: you look for food, ride the waves, and make more dolphins, not in any particular order."
Later on, the boat stops so the passengers can admire a sunfish, the largest bony fish in the world, basking at the surface. I catch a glimpse of it— I've seen a few before so I'm not rushing across the deck— but then my eye focuses on a group of about a dozen birds passing in flight. They are quite dark, with silvery flashes on their wingtips. Flying low to the surface, wingbeats faster than a gull's but slower than a cormorant's. "Finally," I think to myself. The sooty shearwater, Ardenna grisea. It's a lifer.
Like the Scripps's murrelet or Santa Cruz Island bird's-foot trefoil, sometimes a feeling is endemic to a time and place. It is difficult work to chase down a feeling.
